Been away for a bit.
had to clear my head..get things in order.
i need order in my life to progress.

Mainly just been looking for a job, lurking around Cleveland and wanting to get the hell out of here...
And i think will.

What's a good city to live in?

1.get the fuck out of Ohio. i'm not meant to live here. Not that I know where I should go, but I know it's not living here. Go west or something.
2.Apply my talent. With abit more learning i'm sure I'll be great at what I love to do. Why give me a talent for me to just waste?
3.Be content. I'd like to know how that is,thanks.
4.A little house. A place full of books,art,comics and a darth vader mask.
5.To be the adult I should be.

I got alot of things I want to get in order before I'm 30 and still maintain fun and sanity.

Guess all I can do is try.


And then complain.

I kid,I kid

I have been feeling challenged.
More or less bored.

Weezer and Brand new are both touring this year and it would be amazing to see atleast one.

I applied to some hotels lets see how that goes.

Anyway here are some awesome art that motivate me in some way:

junko mizuno





David Choe





Check out this sweet Invisible women staute by the rockin jelly bean.


And there is a new Blue monday comic out!


Nothing else going on but living and surviving. Yay.

or some fuckery like that.


So yeah, it has been known that I haven't been online really for months because of my old computer dying and lack of internet. I spent 6 months without it. When I got my new computer, I told myself that I wouldn't be suckered into online stuff and for awhile I wasn't. but the internet is so tempting and right there. Also I didn't know how much i used it until I didn't have it for awhile. But i suppose it's a good thing. I have been using it more for resources,ideas and crafts than the gossip/drama stuff (even though I still read it,I just try not to get involved). I don't know what I'd do without my computer and phone now. A child of the 21st century is never without one or the other.

I'm going to do an art post soon,But i just wanted to ramble for abit.

I have decided to start teaching myself the tools I need to become a better artist. I'm not going to get into school until next year,(I am going to take some classes here,just to take less wherever I go) But I want to be more prepared on my own. I'm a quick learner and most of the stuff I already know the basics of, but I guess it's more of learning it then putting it into my own style. Sometimes I let mechanics of things totally over throw the creative parts of my work and I lose my drawing in the process. I plan on working on this. I just need resources and a tutorials. My main focus is on photoshop. I think the more I work with this the better my work will be. Or atleast get me another tool to use. It's not like I haven't used it before, it's just not something I really stuck to using. I used it for school things mainly. But whatever it's never too late.

I plan on posting some things online soon. On good days my webcam can get really good photos. I managed to get some drawings up and even one through some basic photoshopping. They are going to be dark because it's still a webcam. I just want to show the drawings,get feedback etc.


Other Stuff: I'm more excited about moving on my own. It's time I got time to myself and my own space. Just mine. No roommates. Most places in Cleveland have one bedrooms for the same rent I paid in Chicago living with others. As long as I find a place with heat I'm good. I was also kinda scared to live on my own, me being a young girl and all,but I have to get out there sometime. I'm really holding out on a clerk/teller job. Not a dream job but something that's going to keep a roof over my head and money for things I really want to do. Life is all about alittle give and take. Yeah Cleveland sucks,it's not a city of thrills and adventures but I don't need that stuff right now. I had all the fun I can take from chicago. It's all about working hard and dealing with less drama. I don't mind living here until I save up enough to leave. i'm fine working and waiting. Besides I'm becoming an old woman anyway. I'm a social person,I'll go out when I want but not all the time. Now if only I found me a dude to do/explore/watch movies/have a laugh/create/enjoy things would be smashing. But I'm not complaining just as long as some things work out. :D

If this didn't make a lick of sense sorry, I'm high and have been really optimistic about things. Also looking at some other people's work (on livejournal and other places) it has helped me grow more bold with showing my own. I have been thinking about where I want to be in my 30's and where I want to be in art and I think it's time to stop fucking around. Mainly giving myself more confidence and willing to learn to be better.

but really I probably wouldn't have written all this without alittle help. :)

So yeah. People at work are fucking idiots and I frankly don't care if I keep this job.
I don't understand cliques. I really don't understand is grown fucking adults having cliques. Geez get a life. It's a dumb job not your life.

I think I'm done with retail. Screw it,I wanna be a office assistant or do data entry work or someting. It's tedious,boring, but steady work and not having be re-quzzied on everything just because i couldn't get someone to buy anything.

Buuut anyway.

I did a drawing today after I got home.
It's based off of Maximo Park's first album cover.
I don't know why i drew it. It's not anything great. Just something quick to put on my wall.
Since I don't have a real cam I'm using my web cam (as if you couldn't tell...)



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I hate prismacolors. They always seem to leave streaks no matter how much I go over the drawing. And once I get the hang of photoshoping I'm sure I can photoshop it and it will look great. But only for the colors. I was trying to use mod colors. They don't seem to be something missing. I don't know what but I blame it on the prismacolors.

I'm trying not to get involved with dudes of old friends/enemies. Been talking to some dude for awhile now but he is friends with all these cleveland hardcore kids and I'm sure he's friends with all the douches. I don't even like him that much. lately I just been finding stuff to do. I knew I wasn't even going to hook up with the dude. So then all those dudes can find out. No thanks.

oooh so many shows coming that I will be going alone to. The perks of being picky and liking odd music. :/

Also i'm going crazy living here. If I have to be here another year I'm getting my own place.
I can't stay here no longer than till decemember. I have been out of my mother's house for 6 years and I should've kept it that way. I hooooooppppe, I get a decent paying job so I can.

Parts of my boring day

• 17:04 On mah way home... #
• 18:29 mann i need to get my hands on the new blue monday comics! why is the dang comicbook store so far away??? I miss Qumiby's! #
• 18:39 man, Ron's best friend Austin and his drunk mother are here. #
• 18:53 my sister and her boyfriend are always arguing. I should go smack both of them. im not in the mood to hear the bs. #
• 19:33 ericka your blue boobs are still on my facebook #
• 19:59 I want my hard work to pay off too. :) #
• 23:08 i think i found the way to make my printer work yay! #

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Parts of my boring day

• 13:47 smooth talkers. #
• 15:17 practicing my knitting. oh my productive. I think i need a drink. #
• 15:45 oh yeah if i get a better job/more hours I'm going to San diego con. #
• 00:55 oh how i love a man in a good suit. #
• 02:16 lol watching dead man on campus. #

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Parts of my boring day

• 20:08 mondays suck. #
• 21:30 fun with photoshop #

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Parts of my boring day

• 12:27 Dressing up for mother's day #
• 14:45 I wanna have a small house, wear dresses,listen to music,make art and bake cupcakes. #
• 19:05 Making brownies. #
• 20:46 Made an awesome mothers day dinner. #
• 00:23 Paper heart is going to be so cute! "the perfect date is taking them to applebees and ordering hot wings." #

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Happy mother's day.
I hope all the moms are there are doing good.


Spent the day with mother. Had breakfast. Watch movies. Now she's at the boyfriend's house. She'll have mother's day dinner when she gets back.
Course she's over there on mother's day..but whatever.

I don't like being tricked. Or pulled into situations that I could've perfectly gotten a warning before.
But i'm trying to be more open with people without being pushy about things. I am kinda pushy. That's because I am impatient.

Moving on, I have photoshop now so with some of my drawings already scanned I'm going to start playing around. seeing what comes out of it. Nothing gets done without alittle trail and error. I wanna say someting really dumb and cliche now but I won't.... INSTEAD I'll post music lyrics that kinda express what i am feeling now:

Manage to keep all my music after Chewy died. Good part of it needs to be ripped/dl'd/bought But I'll get it all back. I heard Thao Nguyen last year and I love her work.

( Chivalry )

And I got back into Kings of Leon, mainly this song:
( On Call )

Call me a dick,dork of whatever, but I really missed music. I spent a couple of months without really listening to anything. mainly for the lack of computer (Real odd how like if you ever have a computer you will probably always need one.) and my ipod dying I had no real way to listen to music. And I did something really stupid with my cd player, I let one of my brother's use it. Now let me tell you about this cd player, I had it for awhile. It was Sony walkmen disc player I got for Christmas. It was the only thing I asked for and got, that wasn't clothes. And I used it forever. I took that cd player with me everywhere. If you saw me coming, I was probably listening to music.It was the one thing I had that never broke down on me. I think I have gone through 60 pairs of cheap headphones with it and with my new learning of music and the internet. I gladly spent too much money on blank cds. I loved and adored it. It was like a love affair. But sometimes the love affair ends. I eyed the ipod.
Now for awhile, I kept to my beloved cd player, never had much love for anything Apple and thought nothing of the ipod. That is before I really used the ipod and got to realize It was what I needed and I bought one. I put my old walkmen away and went on my way with my new love. Then it got stolen. I'm sure it was my Dorm roommate boyfriend/friend's because they were total assholes and we had some words during the course of that year. Also they had this problem of keeping out apartment locked and letting who ever they pleased in. Like the time I found out her boyfriend had been living there over break, leaving the door unlocked. If i didn't come back early for winter sessions who knew what would've happen to the place. My Floor Advisor told me to steal something of theirs,very helpful. I was going to steal her computer but realized that would be really stupid of me and didn't,just took some of their food and dishes. :/
So I went back to my cd player and waited till I saved up money for a new Ipod. I eventually did get another one and put the walkmen away. I never thought to give it away or though it out. It just sat around. When I moved back to cleveland I let my brothers and mother use it. Then one day my brother left it at a friend's house. I know it's gone forever.
It's funny how much attached you can get to something without having any real thoughts about it.
Oh well.

Parts of my boring day

• 11:12 Happy moms day to all the moms out there! #

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Parts of my boring day

• 12:21 @ErickaDanger do you like it? #
• 12:53 looking at old pictures made me realize I had a bunch of different hairstyles and some ugly clothes. :( #
• 13:18 @ErickaDanger hahaha just some stuff that i'd never wear ever again. #
• 13:34 my mom is trying to drag us to see some strippers. #
• 13:43 @ErickaDanger yeah I know! my mom wants to go. see some beef in her face. #
• 13:56 @ErickaDanger Lmao. So they can get their sweat and oil all over you? #
• 14:01 @ErickaDanger are you going to the show? #
• 14:02 @ErickaDanger yes i do. not that i want to but i do. #
• 14:09 @ErickaDanger when's the show? id go if i got extra cash. #
• 14:16 @ErickaDanger heh i like the other two bands. #
• 22:30 @tinyvamp i added you to my lj. #
• 00:57 This mocap show is crazy. Then again im high. #

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Parts of my boring day

• 15:04 Some dude today told me I was built for sin. What the fuck man? #
• 15:06 @JacFantastica some dumb idiot downtown. I just looked at him and walked away. #
• 15:07 @ErickaDanger it's not fair I could've atleast be sexually harrassed by someone hot. never am tho. :( #
• 16:22 I love someecards.com #
• 17:42 my sister and her boyfriend are annoying. #
• 19:34 I need a list of movies i should watch #
• 19:36 @ErickaDanger what? #
• 22:54 what is wrong with this picture? bit.ly/25hWh #
• 00:36 So the "singer" Cassie's tits and twat is now all over the internet. #
• 02:01 day off tomorrow. sitting on my ass all day. #
• 11:51 mighty boosh. #

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Parts of my boring day

• 14:18 home.cranky #
• 14:39 i hate dealing with dumb fucks. im sure that store is gonna get robbed or something. #
• 15:58 why is eminem in a punisher comic? #
• 16:12 @ErickaDanger yeah aint that crazy! this is on my list on reasons why some people shouldn't spawn #
• 16:42 @JacFantastica was it hard? #
• 16:50 drawing. hopefully i get a big piece done. #
• 17:42 @JacFantastica hehe everyone does :) #
• 17:59 @JacFantastica where did you have to go for it? #

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Since getting back to the internet, I rejoined alot things again and i need some friends. I'm all outdated. :(

So yeah if you have one add me!
last.fm-shawnywithay
twitter-girlshovesboy
skype-shawnywithay

The interweb feels so new! I've been running amuck on it and I need to do this comission piece I got talked into doing. Mooonies tho.

My mom's crazy ex/baby daddy keeps calling me. It's good that he doesn't have her number because the dude is a fucking nut and should stay far away from us. He left this drunk message on my phone and calls alot. He fails to realize my mom has a new boyfriend and doesn't need to BS he loves to bring. He's the guy no one likes and he rubs everyone the wrong way. Probably because he's an alcoholic with a mouth he can't shut.

Pfffft,whatever. Next time he calls I'm going to tell him to wait for her to call him.
He probably won't listen tho.

Parts of my boring day

• 12:47 made some tasty wraps. #
• 13:05 I really don't like the All American rejects song. It's pretty horrible #
• 13:32 @ErickaDanger im going to get that movie I told you about. #
• 13:37 i don't like taking over people's shifts. Esp when i don't work the same section. :( #
• 15:15 @hairbrained have a drink for me! #
• 15:39 Someone is finally cutting our grass. too bad the dude needs to pull up his pants. #
• 16:07 Hope the new Captain Kirk takes his shirt off. #
• 16:08 @ArtemisIII yeah and he could barely push the mower. I don't know where my landlord finds these people #
• 16:12 @JacFantastica I see! I'd hit it. #
• 18:32 god im gonna spend a shit ton of money on clothes this summer. #
• 22:21 umm my 14yr old cousin was taking dirty pics on my mom's phone wtf? man. That is why he doesn't come over much. #
• 22:24 @ErickaDanger the older high yeller one. #
• 22:36 god my boobs are huge. I don't know where to put them. :( #
• 23:51 why is there a deadpool movie being made? do anyone outside comicbooks know about him? #

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So I haven't really posted new pictures of myself in awhile.
I guess mainly because I haven't any reason to until now.
Mainly showing off my new summer dress and I decided to wear more skirts/dresses this summer.
So to celebrate not having to wear blue and khaki's all the time.


My mom really hates it when I make these faces.

( for those who's not interested in that sort of thing )

Here's a pic of me my bro and sis Ron and Mealea.



This was a picture post.

A Real post.
i hope my twits aren't annoying.

I spent the weekend trying to relax and then trying to deal with the assholes that come in/call my store.
I'm glad that I'm looking for something new. Really sick of the bull.

I'm talking to boys and I am really extremely horny. I'm not a ho, but boy oh boy. Sometimes you just need it and fuck morals, the comfort of your hand can only do oh so much. Pffft whatever.
I'm trying not to desert the idea of having a boyfriend. Because I do think I'd make an excellent girlfriend (esp. becasuse of doting personality.) but my patience with people is very short, mainly because of all the bullshit you have to go through. Can't relationships be about good conversations,good music,good friends and good fucking? Why do I need to doubt myself and deal with some broad on the side? The forced unnecessary drama what I'm not looking forward to. After years of false starts and failed attempts at this thing the called love, I know what I want and have no time to deal with people's crap. All in all I'm taking stuff slow and not dealing with wishy washies


None of that will be apart of my awesome summer. Seriously.

speaking of summer plans. I have been thinking I might save up to go to a music fest or to ATLEAST one of the comic cons. It would be amazing to go to the San diego con..but im not giving my hopes up.
The funny thing is that my list of plans isn't even that exciting or great just things I'd like to do.
Plans include:
A new job
Attend an Dr.Sketchy's Anti art school drawing session at the grog.
Spend alteast some of my off days out of my house.
Find a dive with cheap drinks
go to cedar point for the first time ever.
Finish a knitting project (though I'm a difficult student according to my mother.)
Learn to drive. (My old ass is finally learning to drive. make fun)
Get my damn online comic up
Go to shows
Some sort of trip. Maybe take in the country at my aunt's house. Though if my gramps is going I doubt I want to drive up there with his cranky ass.
Taking lots of trips to museums.
Spending time with my sisters/brothers.
Fixing up Edgar. (my bike) I plan on doing alot of riding in non-glass field areas.
Mainly it will be about BBQ's,smoking js,Looking cute and spending time with those who put up with me.

There is also a bowling green trip plan to see tiffers.




Besides that I have been working on my body. I recently lost about 15 pounds. Mainly because I don't eat anything and I have been paranoid of getting fat. I use my brother's home gym probably twice a week on my off days. Once edgar is back in shape I'll be riding again. Also all of a sudden, I have become a picky eater. I don't like alot of stuff, like candy,fried food and fast food and I guess I'm really paranoid of too much High Fructose corn syrup and general nasty that they put in food. I do eat alot of bread and grains.
But I'm happy to say that in the first time in awhile i'm really happy with the way I look. My skin looks great,I have more energy and I find that I'm pretty attractive. Too bad there is only like 6 hot dudes in this city. Hmmmph.

Parts of my boring day

• 12:59 Moms word of advice,"try not to look broke down before you have to." #
• 19:44 Over my aunts. #
• 21:53 Tomorrow im making a sexy time song mix. I have my own internet now. #
• 11:22 yay we are online. no more sticking my neck out my window for a connection! #

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Parts of my boring day

• 19:57 My sister is singing weezer way too loud #

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